Saturday, March 8, 2008

give me eyes to see you

i really need to stop watching pride & prejudice. it certainly isn't helping my love life. oh wait, what love life? hah! i can't help it though. that storyline... it gets me every time...

that probably explains why i sat at home alone on a perfectly good saturday night. normally i wouldn't mind, but for some reason today i did. i think it was just one of those days... you know the rainy, windy kind where you can't really go anywhere without getting soaked and end up staying inside watching decorating television. normally i wouldn't mind that so much, but it's not really want i wanted out of my day today. but alas, we cannot always have what we want. i think i'm just in need of some stimulating conversation which sounds almost silly to say. i was fortunate enough to get that last night however, on my evening out with my girls (cheers to katie and lyryn).

despite all of today's ugliness i did catch a glimpse of a rainbow. the sun managed to poke its way through the dark clouds this afternoon only to reveal a faint, but visible rainbow. perhaps a sign of things to come? good things? one can only hope. i found this picture online and i like it so i'm posting it here.



"All beautiful you are, my darling;
there is no flaw in you.

You have stolen my heart,
my sister, my bride;

you have stolen my heart
with one glance of your eyes..."

Song of Songs 4:7,9


restless night

i woke up this morning at about 6am and i was in the middle of one of the most vivid bad dreams. it of course revolved around someone coming into a public place where i was along with family and friends and pulling out a gun. i hate that i keep having dreams like this. i tend to get them about once a week and it's just frustrating. i have no desire to walk in fear, but it gets really hard when the dream feels so real.

jesus i trust you.

Thursday, March 6, 2008

this valley

when i got home from denver a friend of mine told me that there was a song she wanted me to listen to. she said that she felt it would really minister to me with everything that i was going through. she couldn't have been more right. this song describes my heart for the last few months. that's one of the things i love about music... a song can just reach in and pull at your heart because it encaptures everything you're feeling at that moment. i'll post some of the lyrics here so you can get a little glimpse into my heart.


just when i thought this valley couldn't get any deeper
just when i thought i was stepping out of it
just when i thought the mountain was in my view
that's when i saw you

you didn't take me out of it but you joined me in it
you didn't lift me out of it but you lifted me up in it
you didn't pull me out of it but you pulled me towards you and its then i know
i'll be ok

jesus where would i be without your sovereignty
jesus where would i be without your sovereignty

just when i thought this mountain couldn't get any steeper
just when i thought i was falling off of it
just when i thought that valley was in my view again
that's when i saw you

you didn't take me out of it but you joined me in it
you didn't lift me out of it but you lifted me up in it
you didn't pull me out of it but you pulled me towards you and its then i know
i'll be ok

jesus where would i be without your sovereignty
jesus where would i be without your sovereignty

thank you for this valley
in it i will praise you

words & music by lindsay kane