mom thoughts

i got to play mommy to an almost 2 year old for the past 4 days. we certainly had our ups and downs, but overall i really enjoyed myself. it was fun going to the park and watching him conquer the slide and then meeting up with lyryn and jayden at the mall for "mommy time." at least that's what it felt like. i realized how nice it would be to be in that stage of life right now, enjoying it with my close friends and sisters. but alas, that's not how it is.

don't get me wrong, i enjoy my singleness and being able to do what i want whenver i want to do it. there's a freedom in that which i know shouldn't be taken for granted. at the same time i would love to belong somewhere. to have my own little family unit where i'm needed and able to care for and nurture the ones i love.

i know timing is everything and hopefully one day those pieces will fall into place. for now i'll just have to enjoy weekend's like these where i can play house and dream of what it will someday be like to have my own child falling asleep on my shoulder or excited to see me return from the other room.

someday i'll hear you call me mom

amidst your shuffling feet

i'll look upon your big round eyes

which make you look so sweet

you'll melt this sometimes aching heart

when your arms go round my neck

i'm sure that when you leave my nest

this mom will be a wreck

you see dear one i've loved you long

before you reached this place

i've dreamed of you and all you'll be

and long to see your face

no matter how long it takes for that day

i'll wait like the morning dew

because my dear child God placed in me

a space in my heart just for you

spring has finally sprung

yesterday i got home after a long week in indianapolis. i agreed to help at a trade show there with my dad's business. it was nice to do something different for a week, but i'm glad to be home. it was so nice because we pulled into the driveway and i looked around the yard and realized that spring had arrived! the grass was green... flowers were blooming... trees are budding. it was a beautiful sight. it's been a very long and dreary winter and i am so looking forward to nice weather for the next 5 months or so.

good news- i just checked the weather for this week and we are headed for clear sunny skies with the temperature getting warmer. hallelujah!!!

now i just need to motivate myself to get off the computer and go to the gym...

warning: haircut may cause vanity

wednesday afternoon i was sitting in my room spending time with jesus when all of a sudden i got an urge to cut my hair. i will admit that for a moment i even contemplated getting scissors and cutting it myself. thankfully, after 2 seconds i came to my senses and realized how devastating that could be and decided against it. so on thursday i called my hairdresser and scheduled an appointment for that afternoon. once i got there i decided to splurge on some highlights, too and i'm glad i did. i haven't done that in a while so it was time for a change. and i must say that i absolutely love the cut i got, too! it's so short and easy to take care of. it just feels fresh and new and who doesn't like that?

i decided as i was driving home from the salon that it should probably be illegal to drive right after a haircut. girls, you know what i'm saying right? it's dangerous when you spend more time admiring your reflection in the rearview mirror than watching the road in front of you. oh the simple joys of life...

here's a pic of the new 'do!'