i will waste my life

many times i find myself so grateful for music and the emotions its able to stir in my heart. recently i've searched to find songs that expresss my heart when i can't find the words. today that song is "i will waste my life" by misty edwards.

i will waste my life

i'll be tested and tried

with no regrets inside of me

just to find i'm at your feet

just let me find i'm at your feet

i'll leave my father's house and i'll leave my mother

i'll leave all i have known and i'll have no other

i am in love with you there is no cost

i am in love with you there is no loss

i am in love with you i want to take your name

i am in love with you i want to cling to you jesus

just let me cling to you jesus

i'll say goodbye to my father my mother

i'll turn my back on every other lover and

i'll press on yes i'll press on

ahhhh yes. my thoughts exactly! i hope maybe someday i can be that person with a song that ministers to another heart. maybe? just one of those little dreams that right now is off to the side. i know God has his way of bringing us back full circle to the things he put in our hearts long ago. i mean, here i am getting ready to go to africa for 3 months and i knew this is what i was called to do since i was a kid. it's taken time to materialize, but i wouldn't have it any other way. God has this amazing way of preparing us and shaping us without us always knowing how or why or what for. kind of fun when you think about it. :)

so yes, i will waste my life. i will waste my life for the one i was created for, the one i have to trust with everything. there's no greater joy than giving it all up only to receive the greatest love i could ever know.

this valley

when i got home from denver a friend of mine told me that there was a song she wanted me to listen to. she said that she felt it would really minister to me with everything that i was going through. she couldn't have been more right. this song describes my heart for the last few months. that's one of the things i love about music... a song can just reach in and pull at your heart because it encaptures everything you're feeling at that moment. i'll post some of the lyrics here so you can get a little glimpse into my heart.


just when i thought this valley couldn't get any deeper
just when i thought i was stepping out of it
just when i thought the mountain was in my view
that's when i saw you

you didn't take me out of it but you joined me in it
you didn't lift me out of it but you lifted me up in it
you didn't pull me out of it but you pulled me towards you and its then i know
i'll be ok

jesus where would i be without your sovereignty
jesus where would i be without your sovereignty

just when i thought this mountain couldn't get any steeper
just when i thought i was falling off of it
just when i thought that valley was in my view again
that's when i saw you

you didn't take me out of it but you joined me in it
you didn't lift me out of it but you lifted me up in it
you didn't pull me out of it but you pulled me towards you and its then i know
i'll be ok

jesus where would i be without your sovereignty
jesus where would i be without your sovereignty

thank you for this valley
in it i will praise you

words & music by lindsay kane