Monday, June 15, 2009

not me monday

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.

i didn't get together with a dear friend today and listen to her recount the beautiful details of her new romance and find myself blissfully daydreaming about the day i'll be able to do the same. i did not get giddy over all the adorable little things he has done for her over the past few weeks. i am not that much of a romantic at heart... no way! not me!

i didn't wake up at 6am this week during a crazy thunderstorm, run downstairs and grab my 6lb dog and bring her up in bed with me in order to make MYSELF feel safer because that would be completely ridiculous. i am not still scared of thunderstorms at my ripe old age of 26. no way.

i definitely didn't purposely not post on my blog all week because i thought i had nothing important or of value to say. nope, not me!

i didn't watch "he's just not that into you" 3 times at random points throughout this week and constantly remind myself that i am the rule and not the exception and i need to stop reading into things guys do. why would i do something like that?

i didn't then hang out with my sister-in-law and recount to her every single detail of my run-in's with a particular person, no matter how inconsequential they were thereby completing throwing my previous statement out the window. not me!

i didn't actually enjoy not singing on the worship team at church this week and letting the music just wash over me rather than having to be so focused on singing the right thing. it didn't feel incredibly amazing to just be a participant in worship for once instead of bearing the weight of leading other people into it. how unholy of me.

i didn't question a major life decision that i made a bazillion times this week and wonder if i'm doing the right thing. i didn't allow the fear of disappointing people to tug at my heart all week. no way! not me!

i wasn't so completely busy this week that i missed out on opportunities to spend time with my best friend which i so desperately needed. i definitely have not made her feel second best lately. what kind of friend would i be if that were true?

i am not pms'ing horribly the past couple of days. the slightest thing does not trigger tears in my eyes. i am not that emotional.


this list could go on and on.

but i'll stop.


Keshet said...

I smiled the entire time I read this post. I know you didn't do any of these things *cough*, but if you had, they would all contribute to why I adore you so much.

Katie @ Loves of Life said...

I love you and I miss you...and I can't wait for the day to oooo and ahhhh over the things your man will do for will happen. love you