Tuesday, September 8, 2009

they say it's my birthday

today is my 27th birthday, but that's not what i'm writing about. last night as i was lying in bed attempting to drift into dreamland i realized that my mind hadn't gotten the memo and was still moving way too fast. so i started wondering why it is that this always happens to me. almost every night before i fall asleep i'm consumed with thoughts of things i should have done that day, things i need to do tomorrow and everything else in between. many nights i find myself on the verge of a panic attack because of all the overwhelming feelings i have. i think i discovered why this happens. distractions.

or perhaps i should say, lack-thereof? unless i zonk out to the tv (which i hate doing) my time in bed right before i fall asleep is one of the few times during the day when i'm not distracted by something... tv... internet... books... other people. it's the only time that my mind actually gets to sit and process and reflect. this.is.not.good.

i really need to be better about taking time first thing in the morning to just listen and reflect on what needs to be done instead of pushing it off until the next day which i am oh-so-good at. i need to motivate myself to get moving and start crossing those things off my to-do list. how wonderful would it be to start every day like that?

but today is my birthday. so i think i'll start tomorrow. :)

5 comments:

Tatiana said...

First of all, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! I hope you get to do something really fun and have lots and lots of yummy cake!!!
Secondly, I am totally with you on pushing the important "to do" list for the "next day!" I totally need to concentrate more on the important things first like spending more time with God, and STUDYING for my big nursing test!!! But I decided I was really going to start that today... so I'll see how it goes :) You on the other hand, should start tomorrow and take full advantage of your big day today! After all, it only happens once a yr :)

Gina said...

Happy Birthday to you!! And what a great birthday gift to yourself. I recommend yoga before you go to bed...there are great beginner videos out there specific to relaxing in the evenings. Good luck!

The Novelista Barista said...

happy birthday!!!

Lyr said...

Happy birthday love!!!!!

Katie said...

my thoughts lately have been everywhere! But you, you've always had that issue with sleep. haha. happy bday and I think the celebrations may finally be over. lol ;) xox