what do you do when it feels like your whole world has fallen apart? what do you do when you feel like you've watched your dreams fall and shatter into a million pieces? how do you even begin to start piecing your life back together? mornings are supposed to bring hope and the chance to start fresh but all i feel when i wake up is dread at another day of dealing with a roller coaster of emotions.
the only comfort i have is knowing that God is still good. He is still holy. He has not abandoned me. i cling to that today in the midst of this crazy raging storm. i imagine it's what the disciples felt as their boat rocked back and forth, quickly taking on water, and they screamed, "Lord, save us!" here i am on this ship that feels like it's destined to capsize and i keep crying out like them, "Lord, save me!" and he responds just as he did to them, "You of little faith, why are you so afraid?" why am I so afraid? i know i'm not alone in the boat, but i forget that because of the strength of the storm.
my sister played this song for me the other day and the first time i heard it i just cried. and every time i play it i cry because this is exactly how i feel. i don't know what else to do but keep breathing. just keep breathing.
thanks for all the sweet comments and the love. it means more than you know.