Monday, April 25, 2011

social network ramblings

i took a break from facebook for lent. my motivations weren't completely holy and righteous. in all honesty i was overwhelmed at the time with all that was happening in my life and i realized how important my privacy was to me. i had no idea how to begin telling people or who to tell and the thought of my business being put out on facebook sent me over the edge. it was then that i realized lent was about to begin and so i decided to give up facebook. for the most part it was an easy decision, but at the same time difficult, knowing how many people i would disconnect with.

on sunday night i reactivated my facebook account and then proceeded to delete about 170 of my "friends." funny that facebook chooses to word it like that. friends? really? since when are people from high school (who never talked to me then) considered friends? i just find it interesting. i guess my perspective has changed a lot and maybe i'm a bit jaded, but it's where i'm at. i just realize that facebook is an excuse to be nosy and dig into the lives of people you would otherwise have no business digging into. now, don't get me wrong here... i realize the benefits of facebook and i love it for the ways it allows me to keep in touch with actual friends around the world and family members who i don't get to see often. i'm not referring to that. i just know that for me, right now in this stage of life, i want to keep that space a bit more private and reserved for those i do feel close to.

i realize that this might sound completely contradictory considering the fact that i have a blog that anyone in the world has access to... and if people stumble across it then so be it. i know what i'm putting out there and that i might be surprised to actually know who reads. in fact, i've been surprised by the number of people who found out what's been happening in my life because of my blog. people i had no idea read... you know who you are! haha! so comment once in a while would ya?

i don't know where i'm going with this post. it has been weird though... being back on facebook... changing my "engaged" relationship status and then deleting the post from my feed so people don't notice. ugh. honestly i've felt so dirty since being back on. does that sound weird? yeah, probably. it's hard to explain. i just don't wanna get sucked back into the vortex of it. i've enjoyed my extra time from being off it and i know jesus has, too since it meant more time for him. man, sometimes i have things so backwards.

so that's where i'm at with all of that.

no easter recap for me. it was a beautiful day, but also a really hard one for me for a number of reasons. i spent several hours of it crying, but thank God for good friends and family who were there to listen. life is hard sometimes and it's ok to admit that. sometimes even freeing.

lost another pound and a half this week which means i'm at 27lbs total. can't wait to cross that 30lb threshhold. hoo to the ray.

grace and peace,



Gaby said...

yay! for the 1.5 pound! your sooo close to the 30 pound weight loss mark! I know sometimes leaving FB can be liberating

Unknown said...

I didn't give up fb for lent, I was chicken too so kudos to you. Fb has many pro's to it but lately the con's are bigger. And it IS funny the people we consider "friends" on fb, i mean I haven't talked to you in ages! I NEED to do a good clean up.

Way to go on the weight loss! I think its awesome that you lost AND had easter dinner :)

ps sorry for the novel!

Hailey @ Me and My Boys said...

I actually accidentally gave it up, for the most part, for lent. I didn't mean to. But I just get sick of it. I have enough drama, and FB only adds to it. Too many people trying to pry into your personal life, without you even realizing it. I don't even update anymore.

And yeah, I'll hear through other people that so-and-so reads my blog... and I'm always like, "Well, why don't they ever say anything??" lol.

Congrats on the weight loss!! That's so exciting!

Biz said...

I couldn't agree with you more. And I'm ashamed to admit that I sometimes get sucked into the noseyenss of it all, but I do. I'm human, I guess.

I have started to be more selective (luck you :) ) and lately and even pared down my "friends" list. I get twitchy when someone who is not on facebook (my mom) tells me something that X told Y and Y told Z and Z told her. And yet, neither X Y nor Z "talk" to me. So, yeah. If I'm so uncomfortable having my "privacy" invaded so much then I should extend the same courtesy I suppose.

Congrats on the weight loss. You are SO close! :)

Katie @ Loves of Life said...

Oh yea. I'm all about a facebook ramble post. In fact, mine is coming, too.


I enjoyed my time off it. And I haven't enjoyed my time back on it as much. Weird. Maybe. Glad you did it with me :) I mean, vice versa. hehe...

Jo-Anne said...

Almost 30 pounds?!? A-mazing. Way to go! =) Honestly I've never had a FB account. Lots of reasons and it just seems so overwhelming to people I've talked to. I'm sure it has it pros, but I just don't think it's my thing.

Seni said...

I have also been thinking of taking a break from FB. I guess I am always tired of the people that want you to feel sorry for them. It is nice to know that I am not along. And you are so right, FB is about being nosey.

Congrats on the weight loss. 30 lbs is around the corner!!

I know you and your sister shared your WW experience, maybe you could share your work out routine with us?

Bethany said...

I gave um facebook before I announced I was pregnant with Shiloh! It is a relief to know that "friends" aren't going to be privy to the private things of your life that you really only want true friends to know about! I haven't gone back, but that was my personally decision. You look incredible! I didn't get to watch your entire vlog, but you look truly amazing. It was just nice to "see you" since I haven't in so long. Nice work! <3

Charbelle said...

I used to be on FB all the time, now I still love to jump on and catch up with what is going on with my friends who are on there but my time in FB world has been drastically reduced.
You said you blog for all the world yet it's my personal opinion that FB is just surface where as when I blog, I'm writing for me. If people read and take something away then wonderful. Bloggers who are honest, when they meet other bloggers finally in real life, feel like they have always known each other. It's a unique medium. Sometimes I have to re-find my blog voice, yet I still write and I absolutely appreciate the friendships I've made and encouragement I receive and to me blogging is less surface (fb) and more real!